Poems of travelog melbourne- new zealand part 1

This life is really like

In trams and trains

Moving on the rails of life

There are times when we stop

For moments or abrupt

Ups and downs 

In many different stations

Life challenges await

For the winds might be tough

In Wellington victoria

We sometimes may fall

Trying to stand tall

But to always believe

When we; could be

Either below or above

There's always clouds of hope

Brought by the wind

To those who wants to win

All the foreign coins that you have

Empty your pocket before you left

Unless you want them kept

It's like having coins of moments

Some are meant to be forgotten

Some are better treasured

Or some teaches great lesson

When we sometimes wish for the sky

People might thought it was the star

And there's no plenty of time

You gotta go on a star; not the sky

Yes; the lesson is to clarify

When your accent is not defined.

Queenstown

Though you might not be queen

Always think of yourself that you'd win

All the natures and beauty you find

Will always be the one of its kind

And there might be times

When you get lucky in life

Touching glacier on top of mountain

A miracle for us to ponder in return

That destiny precedes our desires

Having everything booked 

Did not always meant it's for you

Life is unpredictable too

For we did not write our stories

It has been written by Him

Cause we are just unfolding

Each page of our stories

Friends and families

Whenever they cross in our paths

Aren't just for us to stare

But to give love and share

Just like when we could hardly bear

Each other's absence

When there's distant moments

cuma titanic

Dalam hidup ini terkadang aku banyak impian. Itu dan ini, serba serbi. Kerana lumrah dan fitrah insan, tidak terlepas daripada kemahuan, keperluan dan mungkin jua kepuasan. Tetapi hidup ini bukanlah serba indah, ada saat yang menduga, ada saat yang meluka dan ada saat juga berduka. Dalam banyak impian yang aku cuba usahakan saat ini, aku mahukan sesuatu yang bukan mampu dibeli dengan wang, bukan juga dibeli dengan pangkat seangkatannya, tetapi keikhlasan dan keimanan.

Banyak dari kita mahu hidup yang indah belaka, walau kita cukup sedar diri kita tidak sempurna, mereka tidak sempurna bahkan tiada siapa yang sempurna, melainkan Maha Pencipta. Allah yang Maha Kuasa. Dan lantas, bagaimanakah kita boleh menyangka, hanya dengan kekuatan diri kita, kita mampu harungi semua, ketidaksempurnaan diri, dia, dan mereka.

Dan kerana itulah jua tujuan kita diciptakan. Untuk sentiasa punya keimanan. Keimanan setinggi yang dapat kita gapai agar mampu menjejak syurga dan redha-Nya kelak, inshaAllah. Dan aku, moga saja dengan keimanan diri yang terkadang compang-camping atau koyak-rabak kerana kelemahan diri, Dia sentiasa ada untuk menerima taubat dan insaf hamba-Nya. aku sebenarnya impikan hati seluas lautan, bahkan jika bisa, lebih luas dari itu. Aku tidak mahu terusik atau tercemar oleh sekadar setitis nila, pecahan kaca atau apa jua yang dilontarkan kepadaku. 

Aku tidak mahu ketidaksempurnaan dunia, merosak hati, meluka dan membarah dalam jiwa. Aku mahukan hati setenang dan seluas lautan, sedalam mungkin kesabaran. Tiada tergugat walau kapal sebesar dan segagah titanic kau hanyutkan dalam lautan hati ini. Ia tiada kesan, kerana keimanan yang memenangkan hati, tidak terusik dengan benda kecil dan kerdil. Hati seluas lautan, yang redha mengharung apa jua gelora dunia, tidak terpikat, tiada tergugat.

Sungguh iman seluas itu, dan sedalam lautan itu, mungkin masih jauh beribu batu langkahan usaha harus ditempuh, namun kerana ada impian dan harapan, aku harus teruskan langkahan, kerana Allah menjanjikan balasan kebaikan bagi mereka yang benar-benar cuba mencapai keikhlasan beriman kepada-Nya. 

Percaya. Hatimu mampu seluas lautan, walau tiada seluas iman umar al khattab atau uthman bin affan, tetapi tetaplah menjunjung dan mencontohi jejak mereka, yang syahid kerana Allah.

Pejamkan mata

Terkadang di saat sukar

Saat ini terasa dunia teramat ngeri untuk dilihat

Aku memejamkan mata, 

Sengaja, kerna buat sementara

Mahu ku larikan diri ini,

Dari konfrontasi dunia nyata

Namun di saat ku pejamkan mata

Bukanlah bererti diri ini lemah tiada maya

Dan bukanlah kerana kakunya jiwa

Cuma aku mencuba membangunkan minda

Yang terkadang lelap dalam fana

Di mana, harus ku cari kekuatan 

Menebarkan sayap semangat diri

Agar tiada mata terpejam

Terlalu lama, sehingga aku alpa

Realiti tiada mudah disangka

Diri ini

Memejamkan mata lagi

Kerana terkadang aku takut 

Hakikat jiwa manusiawi

Terkadang mereka, aku dan dia,

Tiada mampu untuk membeza

Yang mana duka, yang mana dusta

Dan terkadang mata terpejam tanpa sengaja

Kerana diri ini

Sukar teramat, menghilangkan makna

Trauma pada jiwa

Ya, aku jiwa yang mudah trauma

Dan tidak mudah lupa

Namun diri ini tetap tiada akan putus asa

Berjuang membebaskan sayap 

Dari kisah lama, yang membebani cuma

Dan 

Mata yang terkadang ku pejamkan

Bukan kerana kelemahan,

Tetapi kerana menggenggam kekuatan

Membunga harapan

Craved for

We craved for knowledge 

Yet we often abandon the ones we already learned

We craved for creativity

Yet we stumbled upon between desires and selfishness

We often do not know

What should we aim for

What should be the purpose

Cause the world is deceiving us

Often, too often

We craved for the wrong things

Struggled for the wrong reasons

Wishing for the wrong persons

But lost not

Give up not

It is not too late

To change what we craved for

To add what we are lacked of

To find where the purpose gone

We, you and me

Have nothing in difference

But to always remind each other

That the best among us, 

Is the one who's most noble

Having the highest level 

Of taqwa, that could be seek

In this world, while you and me,

Are given the chance to live.

And so we shall,

Watch what we craved for,

And the true purpose of,

Living in His world.

bicara malam

yang kamu bisikkan pada satu jiwa dahulu

kata yang membangkit inspirasi

menjelmakan sisi yang tiada pernah terfikir

wujud pada diri

walau teramat lama

tanpa sedar tercari

manusia terkadang mahukan nama

nama yang menjadi ingatan jiwa mereka

namun mereka terkadang jua alpa

mengukir nama dan tanpa sengaja mengukir luka

pada jiwa yang mendambakan belas dari nya

sungguh Tuhan tidak pernah meninggalkanmu

wahai jiwa yang disakiti atau dilupai

hakikat dunia yang penuh ilusi

bukan bermaksud diri rapuh tidak upaya berdiri

namun kerana ujian itu

meletakkan martabatmu tinggi

seandai engkau redha itu dugaan Ilahi

Maha Agung dan Maha Tahu

bicara malam pada aku

biarkan kegelapan membawa pergi

luka yang pernah menghiris sepi

kata yang tiada pernah dimaknai

mereka tidak mengerti

mungkin masih mencari

kebenaran yang diyakini

bicara malam padaku

biar cahaya Ilahi membasahi hati

biar kitab-Nya yang menyentuh sanubari

kerana itu bukti cinta yang hakiki

MR.SM & Me

Assalamuaalaikum fellow readers. It has been a while since my last entry. Well, a changing course in life would require a twist in our effort to adapt with it. I guess. I do apologize for the 'hybernation' of this blog, as I am currently posted to a high school, in Malaysia. Somewhere in Perak, just an hour away from home for my practicum, finishing my final year of Tesol VUW since 2010. It is actually a 12- weeks practicum with the school, but since Malaysian schools are currently having exams, trials, holidays and too many events, I guess that my practicum would actually be around 9-10 weeks left. In which I do not know what should I feel. Kidding.

Anyways, I am now in Week two of my practicum, we just had two weeks holiday for Eid. And I do admit that celebrating Eid after three years abroad, is quite awkward. Plus, most of family members were not well enough to go around and celebrate, and again I ended up spending most of the time at home. I guess it's a bless. Isn't it? 

I am just gonna share with you a bit about this school. It's a boarding school, nicely located between the Royal city of Perak and on the same route heading to Grik. If you often travel to Kelantan via Perak highway, I guess you could guess the place. It's quite a small school for its kind, but there is something about the school that begin to make my heart melt. We, humans, most of the time are fascinated by the physical looks of a thing, and often make a very 'quick' judgement based on the outside, forgetting the real values that might be hidden inside. For me, this school is nothing fancy on the outside, but once you stepped into the atmosphere, the staffs, the students and the teachers (in this case colleagues) are all welcoming, friendly and warm. A beautiful attitude, full with respect and sincerity. They are all working like a community, supporting and helping each other. And there is not a single moment I felt that any person in this school is isolated in any ways. Everyone is caring towards each other and this is proven by the atmosphere in the staff room. Amazing!

Although I do heard from some of my friends posted in other schools, they struggled to know each other and hardly had time to be friend with many teachers. I am thankful for this great opportunity to be posted here, to learn so much, not just education, but attitude, in a caring community. There is not a single moment any teachers here fail to return a smile every time I meet them, and even if I am not that close to many of the teachers, but I could tell, that they are, the people you would love to be around with. As a Malaysian, you have probably heard about the saying of the people who lives at the same village are like families,  which means they always care and look after each other in harmony. *feels so patriotic*

alright, I guess I do not want to bore you guys with the teaching stories too much and this is like a very simple intro about my life currently. If you are keen to read more about my practicum experience, you are most welcome to visit my personal website of teaching at this link; 

English Incarnation

I''d leave you with that, I'd have to go now, mentor is calling. Till then, embrace your believe, and translate it into action! love much from MRSM Lenggong (:

love. don't fall.

quite recently i heard some of my classmates describing their experiences during practicum. and honestly, i think they are the honest confessions of the future educators about the system, and as a newborn baby to the career, who's just beginning to step into reality. i am afraid, actually. reality of teaching, as an educator.

some people said, you need to love your career. if you don't you'll struggle. my answer is, not necessarily. well, you know love could not be forced. it's the natural rule of life. in order to love a person, you'll need to know about a person first, don't you? so we could not expect people who are newly born to a career, to love the career just like that. they would have to fall in love with the career. yup. fall in love.

how do you know when you're falling in love? truth is you never know, you suddenly do. just out of the blue, your heart is attached to it. for some reasons we might not even know. so the question is, how do you know when you fall in love with your career, or more importantly how to make you fall in love with the career? 

i honestly a new born baby in this teaching profession. future english teacher in malaysian schools. well, boarding school to be accurate. i have not even stepping into this profession deeply enough, even my practicum is yet to start. but hey, i do not want myself to see this career or this profession as a burden, before i even begin with it. em, yeah, i do heard lots and lots of stories about this career, the struggles, the system, and everything. and to be positive in something you have not experience, is difficult. but to face the new experience, with many negative impressions about it, is even harder.

thus, i realise about one thing, i just need to have a right filter for all these descriptions or impressions about the teaching profession. a filter which could twist the negatives to positives. a filter that could change the bad to good, the difficult to a valuable challenge. to motivate instead of dissipate. 

a right filter. is our intention. the intention made within your heart. the motives, the niyyah that we have, it does seem avery basic thing, but because it IS basic, thus we need to have a strong foundation of a career that we might build for years and years. if a house is built on a weak foundation, soon enough it will collapse by itself.. if our motive is right from the beginning, inshaAllah Allah will ease everything for us. believe, and to ease our journey in that profession, did not mean that we would not face any difficult challenge in it, any negative things, but to ease us with the patience, sabrun jamil, a beautiful patience that make us positive and reflecting towards every test and challenge presented to us, in this life, including our career. in hadith one the prophet saw mentioned, 

It is narrated on the authority of Amirul Mu'minin, Abu Hafs 'Umar bin al-Khattab, radiyallahu 'anhu, who said: I heard the Messenger of Allah, sallallahu 'alayhi wasallam, say:

"Actions are (judged) by motives (niyyah), so each man will have what he intended. Thus, he whose migration (hijrah) was to Allah and His Messenger, his migration is to Allah and His Messenger; but he whose migration was for some worldly thing he might gain, or for a wife he might marry, his migration is to that for which he migrated."

[Al-Bukhari & Muslim]

i know it's not easy. i dont think it is. but hopefully that with Allah's help, Allah's blessings, we would be able to face this dunya, the reality with an open heart, (redha)  inshaAllah. a career is just another tool for us to achieve the goal in akhirah. so whatever tool and blessing given from Allah, we have to use it wisely for our best effort to achieve the best in jannah, which is forever and everlasting. don't let our career be a reason for our failure to become an abid and khalifah in this world.

and of course, for myself, first and foremost to fall in love with this career, we need to take whatever it needs to be a good muslim, and thus inshaAllah, with our iman, we will be guided to love and learn the career as time goes by.

this wordly life is not meant to be easy, that's why Allah grant jannah to those who face it with islam, and true faith (iman). it is not easy to face something you hate, it only becomes easy once you fall in love with it. love the right thing. and so, love  Allah, and He will take care of you. amin, inshaAllah

salam ramadhan kareem, 

farahfareen