am a painter on the edge

as salam and hi again to all fellow readers. am sorry for abandoning this little room of my writings for quite a while, but it seems that I am running out of ideas; most probably because there's too much things happening quite recently; which kinda related to my future plannings bla...bla...and yeah, at the end of the day, I did feel quite fragile in pursuing my dreams; will I gonna be able to turn it to reality? Only Allah knows. and the metaphor is; am a painter on the edge, that I have so many things to design and paint my dreams, but I felt so fragile and insecure of painting them while standing on the edge of a cliff.

But the truth is; no matter what life throws at me; it made me realized that we are servant, created to depend on our Master, Allah swt and therefore, it is ok to feel weak at times, it is ok to feel helpless, but just remember each time this feelings came to you; that you have Allah to depend on, to put your hopes to. to hold onto. and most importantly, Allah swt is the Only One who could make your wishes come true.

But indeed, indeed we have so many wishes in this life. this and that; all that we could ever ask for. but be careful of what you wish for, because it's going to determine what we are going to make out of it. it is not wrong to wish for a sport car, for example, but do ponder, and think; what are the benefits of having a sport car to myself? my attitude? my hereafter? will my attitude change because of having such a luxurious car envied by everyone, will I feel so ego that I forgot my effort for hereafter? what would such wish done to us?

this is where the power of wisdom lies.

what we wish for in this life, Allah swt will give it to us, according what He thinks is best for us; not what we think is best for ourselves. Perhaps having a big house, will not do good to our attitude; and thus, we have a medium but a comfy house. Perhaps, just perhaps, becoming doctor will be a burden that we could not fulfill, thus we become a teacher who could educate the young generations. the power of wisdom is crucially important so that we could evaluate what are things that we really need and choices we have, and to always ponder what benefits will it bring to us? are we being so greedy that we want to have it all? or one after another. 

“Earth provides enough to satisfy every man's needs, but not every man's greed.” 
― Mahatma Gandhi

"Have you seen the one whose god is his own ego? Will you be his advocate?"

Al Furqan : 43

mankind by nature has ego; and arrogant at times. and this ego could destroy us. Allah gives us what we really need, cause Allah is the all knowing; and by doing that He prevented us from destroying ourselves with this ego. for those who are too greedy, ungrateful for what they already have; in other words, will only trying to destroy themselves. Those who are greedy of this world, could not run from what Allah has decided for them. Na'uzubillah.

“And thou wilt find them greediest of mankind for life and (greedier) than the idolaters. (Each) one of them would like to be allowed to live for a thousand years. And to live (a thousand years) would by no means remove him from the doom. Allah is Seer of what they do.”

Al Baqarah : 96

Have you heard of the story of the three loaves of bread by Yusuf Estes? The man who lied so that he could have all the fortune, what happened to him at the end of the day?

Therefore, as human, as Allah's servants, I am reminding myself and others inshaAllah, to be grateful, and to always be hopeful, as long as we follow the path that Allah has chosen for us; which is to follow the Quran and Sunnah; always bear in mind that Allah's help is near. 

"We created man, We know the prompting of his soul, and We are closer to him than his jugular vein."

Al- Qaf :16

and to remind ourselves, Allah sends us storms and winds, so that we could bent our knees, which is perfect position to pray. Beautiful words from Yasmin Mogahed.

it reminds me to these two powerful zikr that the Prophet's companions always repeat at difficult times; 

"la haw la wala quwwata illa billah- there's no power nor might by/ with Allah."

"hasbunallahi wani'mal wakeel - indeed Allah alone is sufficient for us"

last week a miracle happened to my sister; she is diagnosed to be healthy and despite the fact she had the wrong medicine for years, Allah saved her from what we think could affect her liver and kidneys badly. Alhamdulillah, alhamdulillah. the power of pray and tawakal is so important; that we should surrender and submit our lives to Allah, He is our only hope. and to always have good thoughts about what Allah decided for us. don't ever estimate the power of being optimistic; as Muslims, we should always be  an optimist, because we have Allah, the Creator, the Almighty. and soon, the truth shall prevail. 

Kun fayakun. and from Him we came, to Him we shall return.

less than 100 days here,

farahfareen